Saturday, November 12, 2011


    Hi there, So you want to read on to figure out what happens next? Ok so i left off at my dad thinking that it was time to get me some help and sending me to texas. At this time in my life i had a girlfriend and we both were living with a friend in his garage behind his parents house. Good times right? Well, moving on. It was first brought up to me in the form of a question, not so much a demand. Now understand at the time i didnt think there was anything wrong with me and was not diggin his idea what-so-ever. Now having a girlfriend and not believing there was anything wrong with me was making it hard to say yes to my dad. Well i get some advice and hear opinions from my friends. Great place to seek advice. NOT!!! After much deliberation and of course taking my friends advice, i choose to go to texas to get this "so called help".
  I am now on my way to texas as pissed off as i can be. Im sure i was not a great travel buddy to my dad. I was angry, with him, and everyone else who said i had an issue. Cause I didnt. Everyone else had issues not me.
  So here it is January of 2006 and i am sitting in a place where i dont want to be and sure as heck dont want to do whatever it is these people are gona ask of me. I am in this facility for thirty days just angry with the world and of course my dad. Not to happy with him. But now looking back, he was just trying to address an issue that later became a big problem and got me into trouble. Well not to say my alcohol problem was the sole culprit of my problems.
    Well as time goes by and im in this facility, i happen upon a female. Well she happens upon me. I wasnt really into getting to meet anyone. Because i have a girlfriend back home remember. But, i do have to say that made my stay easier, and more fun. This girl i met was from South Carolina. Keep that last sentence close. Closer to the end of her stay she requests to stay longer. Strange right? Well not really when all she wnted to do was hang out with me more. Now it comes to the end of my stay. And im ready to go. I do not want to stay for any reason at all.
    So i get home back in florida all excited to see my girlfriend and away from texas. After learning that she had cheated on me with the guy we were staying with took the excitement away. Far far away. Why did i get so angry when i did it to her while in texas and other girls as well. I can tell you why. Because it was all about me and if you wronged ME i was mad. Well, needless to say we were no more after that.
   It is now february around valentines day and guess who comes to visit me?
      Tune in next post to find out.  Good night!!!

Friday, November 11, 2011

Once Upon A Time....

   Hi, this is C.A.S.L., before i go into what life is like now after prison and how i started on the road to rebuilding, not only my life, but relationships with family and friends, i want to go back to what life was like for me before prison.
   Before prison i was a very self indulged person. If it wasnt about me it was not a good day. I chose to party a lot, i dabbled a bit in illegal substances, (which i dont do anymore), and looked at female's as a game. What i meen by that is, the more i slept with, to me i was winning. Bottom line is, i was not a good person. Thought i was but looking back, no i really wasnt.
  My immaturity and not wanting to grow up got me into a lot of trouble. My rough road started back home in florida where i was looking for anyway possible to get out. I did not want to be there, did not want to be so close to my parents, I WANTED OUT. It starts with a cruise to the carribean. While on this cruise i get very intoxicated. Now im with my family on this cruise. After having drank too much people started to try and get me to go to my room to sober up. My dad being one of them. I did not like that one bit, and that started a confrontation which led to me laying hands on him. Which to this day i am very remorseful for. Lucky for me my dad still loves me. Well i end up in my room and not wanting to be there, the room having a balcony, i go from balcony to balcony until i am at the front of the ship just to get out of my room. Why didnt i just go out the door? You might ask, well because my dad had security standing outside. So i am now out and about on the ship and no one can find me. After my dad finding me, i see that he had tears running down his cheeks because he thought he had lost a son. Thought i might have fallen overboard.
  That was it for my dad, when we get back from the cruise and after getting into a fight and being accused of stealing a guys drugs, my dad decides to send me away to a facility out in texas. texas because he was affraid i might escape had i stayed in florida. Thats it for today, but much much more to come.